*sigh*
I really got no idea why my life is like so stress up and depression is always going on veryday in my life!!!
I really do need you!!
Haiz...
I did not reply her message now...
i don't want to hurt her and make her get more angry...
I really got no more ideas hw to make her forgive me...
But i really do need her in my life...
Please don't go...
Last night around 11 pm slept d cuz having headache...
i did not know she had sent me a message until i sudden woke up..
I took my phone to see what tme is it and i saw she sent me 2 message...
I sent her a mail...
Haiz...
Hope she will read it...
but no matter what turns up after she read it...
I am willing to take it..
No matter how much she hates me and not gonna forgive me, i will still LOVE you...
I really do love you and it is serious...
Haiz...
I realise that she is so important to me in my life...
That day i asked her a ques...
Do you like the guy that likes you?
She say YES!!
Guess what is my feeling that time??
It is like so dissapointed and my heart is like broken into pieces...
i never thought of it before that i will hurt that much...
Haiz...
When the time i asked her for her new blog add, she said that she is not gonna give me...
I am so deeply in hurt...
i was in the Karaoke Room listening to my cousins they all singing songs, afeter i read her message that she is not gonna tell me, my mood change to a realy deep bad and hurt feelings...
All my cousins asked me whats wrong and i say nothing...
I just sat a side and did nothing...
Haiz...
Sometimes i really don't know why am i here in this Earth...
Haiz...
Is so hard for me to overcome all this feelings...
I want to find for people who cares bout me...
i just want someone to be at by my side...
Thats enough then...
I will feel better...
I am not good in saying words...
But, i just don't know how to elaborate what is my expressions and what is in my heart for so long...
Haiz...
She really meant so much to me...
I want her!!!
haiz...
Someone, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE teach me how to elaborate out...
Haiz...
I really do love you so much...
No others can replace her...
Haiz...
From now on, i must work hard and keeps her in my heart and go on my track..
My track is really full of sadness and.........................
I really hope that i can overcome everything without her but is better if she is with me...
Haiz...
Up to here for this blog...
Having headache...
Take 3 tablets of Panadol still can't cure...
Haiz...

Us Against The World!!!
Song in my audio profile...

Well...
Today should be a great daybut after reading her blog, I felt so stress up bout the sentence, "Just give up la! I **** another guy but not you! I just treat you as a friend! And no more!"..
Are you saying that to me?!
Please tell me truth!
No matter what, I will not give up that easily!!
Nothing makes me give up!
And in my life, there is no such word as GIVE UP!!
I really treat u as my .........................
Haiz...
But it came up like that...
Well, just celebrate my grandma's birthday today in Pusing Public Seafood Restaurant...
I was like very happy at 1st...
After reading her blog, haiz...
I felt so sad and stress up with that sentence!!
What do you mean by that?
I want to know!!
Well, bout 11.00 p.m. just now, ............. just SMS-ed me and we had a short chat...
Haiz...
After that, I am here blogging this blog...
I felt kinda stupid of thinking bout that matter..
How could I just make it on time??
Haiz...
The whole day was just thinking bout the story I a
suppose to create...
Haiz...
But after reading her blog I felt like my story is no more continue for me..
I gotno mood...
During writting this story, I kept on thinking bout her...
This makes by spirit go wild...
And I can just think fast...
Haiz...
I really believe that I could not survive without her...
Haiz...
Whatever you ask me to do now, I will do for you!!
But there is one deal...
If you are really not gonna disturb both of them anymore...
You wanna disturb or hurt me...
FINE!!
I really felt that I am so stupid to protect u guys...
I really like felt like I got a heavy burden or what so ever thing going on my life...
No matter how you both hate me, I will still take care of both of you just like how I protect my family members..
Haiz...
I think I'll blog up to here...
Adiós....
........ don't think bout him anymore... He is not the correct choice for you cause he really treat you badly... But whatever decision you make, I still supports you!!
Never call her today..
She don't want me to call her...
I felt some kind of strange feeling going on..
Whatvis that feeling...
GOD!! Tell me!!

Well...
I know I am dumb and stupid and .................
Haiz...
Hmm...
What am I suppose to do now?
Any idea?
Well..
If you really don't trust me?
I really got no idea what to to next then..
Well, whole day SMS-ing with her feel so nice chatting with her..
The feelings is very hard to find for me..
Hmm...
I had wrote a few poem for you...
I know it sounds bad....

Love is a many splendored thing they say,
And I believe it when you looked my way,
Out of the blue,
Things seems to happen,
By chance or destiny,
Is the question,
Living my life so long,
Without knowing your existence,
Then came a day we felt each others presence,
Guess what's the meant to be will always find a way,
Loves creeps into hearts and decides to stay,
A love so expuisite,
Yet intricate,
In a world only "You and I",
A love we can't demonstrate,
A secret that we have to keep for life.
Every moment I spen with you,
Is every one of my dreams co ing true,
More than words,
I want to show you how I feel,
Someday, some place, sometime, I will.
Love is a journey for 2,
Step by step, me and you.
The future we can't see,
Let love lead the way for you and me,

Another poem here...

Yours isthe heart that beats with mine,
Your the air I need to breath,
The driving force within my life in which I can believe...
You're the INSPIRATION in my every word and deed,
You fill my heart with love and fill my life in need...

Well...
There is one more poem...
I will blog of in tommorow..
No matter whatever happens on earth, my love towards you are the same..
I love you...

Life is DIFFICULT,
Full of trail!,
Sorrow pain,
But if you fall down,
Just stand up STRAIGHT,
Be CONFIDENT and SAY,








SIAPA TOLAK SAYA!!

Haha...
Well, I'll blog up to here only for today lar...
Adiós...
Have a nice day everyone..